today i went for my four week checkup and got to hear bebé's heartbeat again. there's something really calming and surreal about that. it kind of makes it seem like nothing else matters. you just cut me off- no worries. i heard bebé's heartbeat. you have slowed to a near stop in my lane to turn left when there's a turn lane, no worries.
bebé daddy and i are trying to be more chill about life in general lately. sometimes we are super laid-back and sometimes rather uptight with things/people we can't control.
i have started researching birthing options. we're not quite at hospital tour stage yet, but soon. i LOVE my OB, but would really love to have a waterbirth. with her, it's not an option. i am a pisces and have always been drawn to/soothed by being in and near water, so it makes sense to me to bring our child into the world this way. however, there are NO options in town for a hospital waterbirth. there are two small hospitals about an hour away that are options, as well as a birthing center much closer set to open this summer. any other option would require leaving my OB. she and her staff have taken great care of me since unsuccessful pregnancy #2. that is worth a ton in my book. so, at the moment, though i really, really want to have a waterbirth, i think i am going to stick with my OB. ultimately, being in good hands in the most important thing.
four weeks from today, if bebé is in the right place, we'll know for sure if he's a him. my doc said today that her sonographer is basically a rock star and i trust that, so we'll see. at our 13 week u/s, she thought he was a boy.
on a mostly unrelated sidenote, one of my food aversions, almost since i found out i was pregnant, is spinach. historically i have loved spinach, so that was a shocker. i read recently that eating too much spinach can inhibit the absorption of calcium. i'm pretty sure my body knew that before i did. very interesting.
