i had a bad mama dream last night. the baby turned out to be a boy (we're still not sure yet) and i completely neglected him. not on purpose, but somehow while he was sleeping, for almost my entire dream, i kind of forgot about him. in my dream, several hours went by and i had not changed or fed him. at one point i was several hours away in another city and remembered i needed to go home and feed him. traumatic.
on a positive note, i think i might be starting to feel him move. not sure as i have no clue what that feels like or if i am completely making it up, but i think so. i look forward to feeling it more.
three more weeks until the big ultrasound. i'm still torn about the waterbirth issue. i keep ingesting all the books i can read about natural childbirth. i whizzed through hypnobirthing: the mongan method and your best birth. next up: gentle birth gentle mothering.
i found out my insurance does supposedly cover free-standing birth centers and midwives, so it's good i have options. and the two hospitals that allow waterbirths, st. genevieve and greenville are both in network for me. i am excited to find out more about the birth and wellness center in o'fallon, slated to open this summer. they will be at the earth day festival, so i look forward to meeting them.
decisions, decisions.
