fear

i don't know why but fear struck yesterday.  the first several weeks of this pregnancy i was scared and tense and worried the entire time that i would have another miscarriage.  that has slowly waned as the weeks have passed and we've hit major milestones.  but, yesterday i started worrying again that this pregnancy won't stick.  i don't know if it's because we are three weeks away from THE ultrasound or i think i overdid it at water aerobics or what, but i feel scared again.  i've not gotten to the point where i can even tell if i feel baby moving, so that's not it.  i'm not in pain or bleeding, so i don't know why i'm scared again, but it sucks.  i want to feel chill and confident again.